Ever since school started up for me on Tuesday I've been really really anxious about my school work. Last night I had such a hard time completing an assignment and I've been stressing out about it all day today.

I know I shouldn't be too hard on myself. Afterall, this is the just the first week of classes and I'm a little "rusty" since I took off from school this summer. But I still can't shake the feeling.

**Update**

So I went to go talk to the manager this morning. She told me to call dispatch and file a report. I called and they came out but said they couldn't make a report because she didn't physically touch me last night. He did say that is was on file for why I called and that he came out. So then I asked the manager what I could do.

The manager then said she is going to put my lease up for rent. Since there are no spots open she said she is going to see if anyone is getting evicted on the 15th. If people are getting evicted she will get me into one of their rooms and try to see if she can get corporate to waive the $300 transfer fee. She said if that doesn't work then she said she would talk to managers at the other apartments in the area. She said no other place offers as much as this apartment complex does, but she said I could probably find a good one with a lot of the same things for cheaper or I could go with an apartment that Doesn't really come with anything and I could just pay super cheap rent and my utlities. In the long run if I get a place like that on my own it might actually cost less then what I pay now.

I will find out more in the next week and a half. The sucky part is I'm going to have to find some people to help me move. I can't move everything by myself because I can't even carry everything. Hopefully the next week goes by smoothly.

Thanks for all the love y'all.

DCGC- that's good news, but I wish it could be better.

Nsane- i meant to say earlier- where is the broken microwave from? If it's Target they should be able to work with you even without the receipt and box, as long as it's less than $70 OR you paid with a credit/debit card or check, in which case they can look it up. Wherever it's from call and ask about the return policy.

I have cramps.

Stupid bladder is acting up again.

^Have you tried D-Mannos (sp?) When I had the awful months long infection that eased it a lot. Cranberry pills too.

Not eating sugar is supposed to help, but like the owl who never gets to the center of the tootsie pop without biting, I wouldn't know.

^^Ooh I should try those. Thanks Emma. I'd take myself to my doctor, but this being a saturday and all...ugh.

My dad lost his workman's compensation and health insurance (I was on his health insurance plan.)

Of course this all happened right as I was trying to figure out whether or not I needed to go to the hospital (I was having a really bad breakdown.) Thankfully Will dragged me to his apartment and helped me recover.

I'm pretty sure I need a new therapist, and possibly meds (though I'm still reluctant to take them if I can get by without them) but now I can't afford either until I can find a new insurance plan that is quasi-affordable and will cover all of the doctors and therapists I find myself needing.

Some people should stop thinking about themselves and they should get a clue.

Darkdreamer I hope things will get worked out for you soon. Keep your chin up

DD- I go to some health and mental health centers for poor people down here in Texas. I wasn't sure what Boston had so I did a little research.

http://www.namigbcan.org/

Down toward the bottom there's a pdf resource guide. Seems like it might be useful. Maybe. Hope this helps! And don't be afraid to take pills- if you're in a really dark place they may make a real difference. I know I wouldn't be alive today if not for modern psychopharmacology.

And nsane- I'm so glad that worked out!

Emma hun, I hope you get some help and feel better soon -

^ I hope everyone gets'a a large dose of happy and better times soon.

I have some things to b!tch about but i'm not gonna let it bother me.
Except the fact that I screwed up my wrist again. Well it was always screwed up but today it's more so than usual.

^^ Aw no Moon... I'm sorry to hear it.

I just can't shake the feeling of being down today. Everything just feels a little off, a little wrong. I'm trying to shake it off, resolve it, but it feels like nothing will lift my mood.

Red

for you RedAngel and for you too Moon.

Thanks Vampira, DCGG, and Cyn. I'm doing better now that it's nearly the end of the day, knowing I can start fresh tomorrow.

As Miss O'hara said, tomorrow is another day.

I can't stop caughing. My throat is really dry no matter how much water (even though the water here tastes bad) I drink. It's starting to get annoying. It sounds like I'm hacking up something every 5 minutes.

just lost my lunch all over my room... ok its not what is sounds like but it is exactly what it sounds like. I just got something to eat and as I was walking in my room I tripped on a wire and it went flying everywhere, my stomachs killing me so the other "lost my lunch" is still a possibility if I don't eat something soon...

I'm late with my student loan payment and I can't log in to the stupid loan website because I forgot my password and it's taking them forever to send me the password reset email. Grrrrr.....

Also, I didn't get to finish any of my homework last night, so I was hoping to do it today at work but I have too many distractions.