I feel and look like a hot mess. I'm about to find out what is going to happen today within the next 20 minutes.

^^that made me laugh. Sorry. just the first line was as the title...completely random. I wasnt expecting that

^^I'm glad I could bring a little light to your day.

I feel weird in pants. I much prefer skirts. But today is a pants sort of day.

I normally feel weird in heels. I love them but I have no idea how to wear them anymore. When I was little I wore heeled boots all of the time. Then when I started mostly wearing flats now I can't wear a heeled shoe for more then 30 min before I'm in a ton of pain. Walking turns into the balls of my feet burning. I wish I knew how to change that so I can wear heels again.

^^ gel insoles - I could never spend the night wearing five inch slut heels and running around and dancing without them.

It got very cold outside.

Thinkin' of the nav bar... it reminds me of the dashboard of'a hearse put in park in the best darn spot n'the whole Drive-In and I don't think I need to tell'ya what's playing!

.. and those are Ghost Moths!

One of my work buddies posted pics of her nieces in bikinis on Facebook yesterday......there isn't enough eye bleach in the world to make me erase those horrible horrible images from my mind.

^^ Yikes!

2 random thoughts:

Sometimes it feels lonely to be here in the house alone, but sometimes it's incredibly peaceful too.

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Hm, I have the option of "liking" something my ex-bf posted on Facebook (though I'm not a friend). Debating.... no. I like what he wrote, but I'm not interested in opening up communication.

I keep wanting to sleep in late. I will wake up and then deside I want to sleep. So I sleep for an hour or two more and then I still don't want to get up. So I will keep trying to sleep until I know I either have to get up or it feels pointless to go back to sleep. I'm not sure why I've been feeling like this. I know it isn't healthy and is a version of depression.

It's not a miracle....it's biology!

By the way, I'm sick and tired of seeing a certain someone's pics of her baby's ultrasound.

I love having a purpose...one that I'm excited about.

Every time I need to talk to finacial aid their number is always busy. I can understand a high volume of callers, but this seriously is getting rediculous.

The weekend disappeared way too fast.

Why do other people have to complicate things? What I want to do is very simple. But they have to throw loops and bubbles into our plans to make things difficult. I think for that reason I might have to cancel my friend trip because I just don't have the money. I'm barely scraping by now and that's because I'm borrowing money from people.

^^ I hate when that happens. Why do people make things more complex than they need to be?

I can't figure out how to feel about now being 33. By the time I get it figured out, I'll be 34, so maybe I'll just say meh.

That said, I should probably frown less. For a lot of reasons.

^^Ha! I hear you.

Red you should smile more. You look very pretty when you do.

^^ Hey, thanks. Good advice from another lovely lady.

OK, one more state job application to send out. Got to get that done tonight.

I forgot how much I love 100 calorie M & M Kudos...

No, Cathy...I'm not changing my registration for the fall quarter to take stats 2 with you just because you're feeling insecure. We don't have to take the stupid course until spring 2011, so why rush it?

I want to sleep. for a long time...

I know I need a more sound and fulfilling job, but for more reasons than I first realized. Been thinking about Grandma, and reading about dementia, and wondering if/when Mom will be the next to need care. If she has a genetic likelihood of developing the condition, I'm pretty sure events in her life have increased that probability.