Scene kid music!

^^That scares me. I can stand the emo song but the entire thing is based on making fun of emo people.

I almost wish I could believe that was true but their an obscure electro pop band and all their songs (at least the ones on youtube that I could handle 30 seconds of) are horribly bad... I dont think they are making fun of anyone, this is just scene music

Seagulls suck

^^^^ewwww

bwt Diva, I love your avatar...it fits u well!!

I just had the worst bacon egg and cheese sandwich ever just now. The bacon was hard...not crispy, hard! They put a crap load of margarine on it and the egg wasn't cooked properly. Worst sammich ever!

^^ Ewww! I'd avoid going back -- or at least avoid that sammich!

There's a muscle in my lower neck, sort of under my left shoulderblade, that I sometimes strain -- and when it heals, it pinches a nerve. And the pain goes down my arm. So yeah, dealing with that again. I've seen a PT for this before, so I know it can be fixed with stretches every 2 hrs and a heating pad 2x/day, but ugh, tedious.

^^That sucks. I hope it goes away on its own and quickly.

^^ Thanks, Diva. Me too. *half smile*

I'm just aggrivated. I'm mad at myself for helping others out so much. I used to have a ton of money saved up but I used a lot of it to help a friend when they were on hard times. One bad thing lead to another and now I'm having hard times with money and they don't. They offer to help here and there but not very much. It also bothers me when I was younger how I wasted my money on a loser that didn't deserve the expensive things I got him and if I would of saved that money what better place I would be in now.

I'm also very mad at my mother. I have cleaned the entire house until it was spotless a million times over again and she still screws it up. My family and I think she is a hoarder. But I'm getting tired of her screwing everything up and not showing respect to the work I've done. It's everywhere around me. It also upsets me that my mother doesn't act like my mother but my friend with issues. Ever since I was little she really didn't cook for me and she never cleaned. Hell I was lucky to get to see her. There was a time I didn't even remember I had a mom or what she looked like. Now that I'm older she disgusts me. Does she ever make me food, no. Do I ever make her food when I'm dead tired and have been doing things all day? Yes. Because of her the kitchen smells so bad that when I wanted to try to eat yesterday I couldn't because the smell disgusted me and I lost my appetite. I'm already gaining weight from eating once a day if that. This is stupid.

first: dont look back on the past, its hard, but it gets you nowhere, focus on how to work in the here and now. It'll help


and your mom. I think I got quite lucky when I got a mom who was just great, but sometimes, you just get the bad end of things. But your mom not really bieng there helped you, though you might not see it. You became a stronger more independant woman and you learned what you didnt want to become. ya, your mom was pretty crappy for what she did (or didnt) do, but she did help you grow. Just look on the positive side

oh. my rant:


MY NEWMANAGER IS A DUMBA**S


and a total creep. I can't stand him. were always short on orders. were short on people. so I work 40 hours a week (i'm only suposed to work 20ish) and though I do need the cash, its a pain. we need new shift managers and two of our 3 remaining ones have already asked me if I would go for it, sure i'll do it. (more $$$$$$) but were losing 3ish more people at the end of the summer (3ish means it could be 2, it could be 4) and he still hasnt jumped on getting people. BAH.

even the customers think he's stupid.

they've asked us: "who is the idiot"

its sad.

^^Oh damn. That sounds awful. Kudos on the shift manager position though. maybe you could hire more people?

My rant: I don't wanna go back to work tomorrow!!!

Thanks GH. I know she worked hard so I would have a place to live and food to eat. But now that she gets the chance to step up she doesn't. I know what I want to be because I had a dad, grandma, uncles, and aunts teach me those things. It just bothers me that I'm so annoyed with her that at times I don't even want to be around her. Just hearing her pull up in the driveway can make my mood go from great to crabby. It also upsets me because I do love her and I know she is lonely after losing my dad. I just can't bring myself to show her.

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