Life just really sucks right now, and I just need to get that out there. Wasnt really sure where to put it, but then I remembered that you guys used to get me through everything. Not sure if it will work the same this time, but literally I have no other option.

Just feeling really lonely, and not knowing what to do with myself. Feeling like I dont really have anyone to talk to. I hate sounding all melancholy and emo like this, I really just am at my wits end. Then last night, while I was already feeling lonely and upset, sitting at home by myself like always, a guy who I used to be sort of good friends with but hardly see anymore (which is actually how it goes with all my friendships) starts talking to me about how he just wants to die, etc etc. Im just the sort of person who takes on other peoples sadness, and I was already feeling down, and so that just pushed me to need to get the above message out, and I dont know. I just need to get out of the house I guess, Im just struggling with not having any friends living where I am, and not knowing who to talk to. Getting kind of sick of just talking to my mother, especially when she also seems to want to just bring me down at the moment.

Dont know if that even made any sense, but hopefully you can see the sort of jumble Im in at the moment.

^^ I hope you get to feeling better soon Symmentha.

If you ever want or need to... I know where the chat is.

Sym, you were there for me on GB when everyone thought I was a spammer. When really all I wanted was to talk and be apart of something more then myself. You were the reason why I didn't get kicked out there and why I'm apart of this lovely forum now. If you ever need someone to talk to just pm me on here. I'm almost always on and off of here at all times of the day. I will never turn you away or ignore you. I've been there and I know how much it hurts. When I transfer to my new university I know I'm going to slide into that place again. But like I said, I'm always here for you.

Gah! The counselors who send me clients are morons!

I'm a little mad and happy at the same time. I'm mad that I ended up getting a C+ in my socy class because if she would of let me present my project I know I would of had an A. But at the same time it's better then her failing me for not being allowed to present.


update: How the hell is this fair? Alyssa is the one that screwed antony and I with our project and she got a B in the class. He got a C and I got a C+. We did all the work for our project. We were on time. We weren't allowed to present because of her and she gets the better grade. WTF

I just looked to see if my pay check was put into my account. It was and it looks like there is $10 missing out of it. I won't be able to do anything about it until I get my pay stub in the mail. It really sucks because I think since I made more this month then I ever make in one pay check they took a hell of a lot more out for taxes then what they should have.

My neighbour is a tosser. He's sitting in his back garden with some similarly odious "chums" chuckling away like a drunken baboon. I always knew I needed some sort of incendiary device

I heard "Stairway to Heaven" on 2 radio stations consecutively this morning. So naturally I wonder, "Dear God, who's passed away now?!"

The answer is, thankfully, no one in Led Zeppelin.

I'm really worried. Matt didn't feel good on thursday. He felt like he was going to throw up all night. Then he came to my house and tried to sleep. He kept waking up every two hours and his stomach still felt like he was going to throw up. He called off his tattoo and went home. He slept all day until he had to go to work and he still felt the same way. Selfishly I was upset because he didn't feel good and I wanted to spend the day with him.

Then when he went to work it was so hot that he did throw up but even after that he still felt the same. He hasn't really eaten in two days and when he tries he feels like he is forcing himself. I'm mad at his work because by law if he throws up or has diehea they have to let him leave because he works with food. Do they follow those laws? Hell no. They made him stay and work anyway.

Before I went to sleep I asked him what he was going to do after work. He said he was going to go to the hospital to get checked out. I haven't heard from him yet and I'm really worried about him.

^^ I really hope it's nothing more than a hell of a stomach flu. I hope he gets well soon, and that you hear from him soon.

People need to stop being lying, stealing backstabbers.

I try to be nothing but kind, patient, loving, giving, and forgiving. Then my friends go and do things like this to me.

This is the second time this has happened in the past month. I've lost one circle of friends, and now one of my closest confidantes. Knowing the truth about the former friend/confidante's deceptive character I am now glad to be rid of him, but still... I'm pissed off.

^^^

Our AC took a crap yesterday. Today & tomorrow are supposed to be in the 90's.
I am actually pretty glad I have to work both days so I don't have to worry about it, but I am worried about Zoe. Chini's + heat= big problem. I am going to try to transport her in to the next room where it's cooler. Hopefully that helps.

I've had indigestion that comes and goes since yesterday. Ugh.

I emailed the Fella this morning to wish him a good day. He told me he had a headache, might go home early, and that he was going to do yardwork after work -- and "would you care to join me?"

Great idea. Yardwork in the rain. After doing yardwork on Saturday afternoon and housework yesterday.

It's all right; it's good exercise and gets the yard in shape. I just sometimes think his drive comes from restlessness, and I think it skews his priorities.

I really don't want to work today. It's hot outside and I'm just not ready for my work week to start. I guess it's not that bad considering I have wednesday off this week. 4 more days of this month left that I have to work with her for extended hours and then I go back to normal. It sucks because I get less money. It's good because working with her more is torture.