You know you need a new job when spending $35 at the bead shop instead of the planned $25 sends you into a cold sweat.

In other news, I plan on refabricating a necklace given to me years back by an ex-bf. But considering the supplies I bought, now I'm having second thoughts about including it in a freebie swap. Maybe I should sell it instead.

Trouble getting over an ex or keeping those items by an ex Heather... you know what you need? Death Bear! http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/35319061/ns/today-valentines_day/

^^That's kinda cool.

I'm sick of feeling so poor all the time.

^^agreed

^^ Count me in too. I feel more poor now than I did when I was just starting this job.

And my doctor's office is driving me nuts.

I hate myself and I am a f*cking idiot. I submitted a photo of myself for a "best pic" contest on the World Goth Day facebook page. It was up for a few hours, then weird friend requests started to come in, and I took it down.

And now it's here.
http://thedailydischarge.com/a-day-for-corsets-f**k-yeah/comment-page-1/#comment-270

Without permission. And they implied that I am fat.

I've emailed 2 requests to remove the photo, not like that will happen.

I am an idiot, I am a f*cking idiot. I thought, what's the worst that could happen? Who'd want that photo anyway? Now I wish it was never even taken.

Just want to disappear.

^ ^Oh no! You're not an idiot. And they've removed your photo. How the heck were you supposed to know some moron would use your photo without permission? The idiot was the person who put your pic on the article. It was stupid article, too.

Redangel: You aren't an idiot. You were doing something for fun that just got out of control. Don't repremand yourself for that. Another thing, you are not fat.


My rant: The first part is small. Last night I went on my formspring and someone asked me why am I so fat? Not only is that rude but it kinda stung a bit.

Secondly, I broke down today at school. You all know I had $2,000+ go missing last week. Well the other day I pulled some money out of the bank to pay my mom back and to pay off my tuition. I pulled out $600. Last time I remember I counted that much in the envelope. I left it on my dresser in my house until I went to school today. My purse was in my eye sight right next to me at all times during class. Class got let out a little late and I had to run to pay on my tuition before my next class.

When I got there and pulled the money out $100 was missing. My stomach dropped. I normally don't get emotional in public. But as soon as I walked out of the cashiers I started to cry. My friend got me a pop for my next class but I couldn't go. I told my teacher what happened and that I didn't feel well. I even started crying in front of him and cried all the way to my car when he told me to just email him and take care of my business since I wasn't presenting today. I don't know what to do.

Now I need to find money for my tuition. On top of that I have to pay my loan payment with they just added $175 to my normal $182.43 because they had to add insurance on my car since I can't get my regular insurance until the 26th because a ticket I had gotten once upon a time won't show on my record til then. If I get my insurance before then it won't come off of my record until my insurance ends. I can't stop crying. I'm literally having a break down. Zombie said she would come over after class to try to make me feel better before I have to go to work. I feel sick and I've lost all of my energy.

^^ Oh my God, DCGG, I'm so sorry.

Thank you, and Diva too. The writer of the article now presents me as the a$$hole, but I feel better knowing the pic is down.

^^We should find an unflattering pic of him and post it somewhere with an article as equally stupid as his.

^yup, the pics are off. Don't hate yourself, girl. That ANYONE would call you fat is insane. You're a strong, flame haired babe!

DCGC- wow, I'm so sorry to hear that.

I was gonna complain about my cold, but comparitively it doesn't seem as important.

The f**k? Someone saying you're fat is defiantly suffering from some vision disorder Red. I mean this next statement in the most polite of fashions, if I was at a bar with my friends and saw you in there, I'd be like; "dibs guys, dibs on the tall redhead".



Missing $ is rough, but you'll figure it out DCGG, don't worry yourself sick.



Emma, having a cold when it's hot out, is awful. Feel better.

Gah! I just realized I have an inflamed lymph node under my chin! It hurts. My hubby says that if it's still there tomorrow I should see our doctor. He's had a few in the past. ugh.

Thanks again, Diva, and I hope that lymph node behaves itself. Take good care of you.

Mrs. D., Emma, Spooky: Thanks so much. I know I really wigged out, and I appreciate the support.

Spooky: Thanks very much. I'm only tall in my heels though.

DCGG: If I could tip karma's scales, I'd happily have the pic remain on the site and have you get all of your money back.

Emma, Spooky, Red: Thanks for your kind words

Diva and Emma: I hope you feel better soon.

I felt like a loser today at work because I heard someone talking about misplacing a $10 bill and I literally had to run out of the locker room so I didn't cry about all the money I've lost in front of my client. I searched everywhere and I can't find my envelope that I lost last week or the missing $100 bill.

The only good thing about any of this is my mom payed off the rest of my tuition for me in return for taking my mail in rebate she was going to give me the cash for today (which she had to add $50 since I only got $50 from the rebate) and she as well as matt are willing to help me pay my loan.

I just felt bad because I flipped on my mom earlier after she helped me with my tuition. I was in a poor poor pity me mood and asked why this stuff keeps happening to me? How come every time I'm supposed to get money to help get me out of a tight spot or just extra money that I can use for what I need or me it disappears? My mom had the nerve to ask me why I wanted spending money. I accidentally blew up at her saying because it isn't fair that all my money goes to bills and I can never buy anything for me when she gets to do little things for herself all the time.

Breaking in your new sexy, gothy boots in Seattle is not healthy for your feet
I strained the muscles in my arches & have been limping since Saturday Ouchies.
I also expected to have Tuesday & Wednesday off for my weekend when I went back to work on Monday so I could get some r&r. Nope. I work until Sunday now. After I go to Houston in June I will be desperately looking for a new job. I can't take mine much longer.
As much as I don't like to admit to a job being such a huge part of life, unfortunately it is. Mine has made me bitter & wanting to hermit, which means it's time to break out
However grateful I am for a job & the money, my so-called-sanity comes first

I'm starving, so I just went to the cafeteria at my job. They ran out of croissants. They ran out of both Coke and Pepsi (diet and regular). The small bottles of orange juice were just put in the fridge so they were warm. Ditto the 7-Up. WTF?! I stormed out of there. Yeah, I coulda had cereal instead and another beverage, but it's the whole principle. This happens all the time. They couldn't put the friggin' drinks in the fridge before closing up yesterday? That's it. I'm boycotting the cafeteria, except for fish and mac 'n cheese fridays. But I guess I'll have to get my soda elsewhere.

^^Damn!

I'm hideous. The area under my chin is swollen because of the lymph node, I have some ugly reddish inflamed bump on the right side of my chin, and I'm missing a tooth. Eww. I don't want to leave the house again ever!

^^ Oh no! You are NOT hideous. You're just not well right now. All of this will get better, it's just a matter of time. It would frustrate me too, though. Before long, you'll feel like your gorgeous self again.

^^Thanks! I hope to look better by the time I leave for vacation later this month.

My new rant: They Wendy's by my job no longer serves breakfast. I am so angry right now. I really wanted a bacon egg and cheese biscuit. I ended up with a baked potato, which is strange to eat at this time if the day, no matter how delicious it is.