^^Same as above today.

Could it be caused by that chicken salad you had yesterday?
If your not used to eating salad, especially iceburg lettice, that'll sometimes not agree so well with people. eee I hope it wasn't rank and gave you a slight case of food posioning.

Hope you feel better soon Diva.

I still cant taste

You know it was a bad day when you don't even want to go into it here because recounting it will just put you back in a bad mood. I'm trying to enjoy my evening, chill, and pretend work didn't happen today.

^^ I know how it feels, Emma.

Posted a Facebook status about being glad to be rid of the ex- Ryan. One of my coworkers jumped all over me for not being over the past and continuing to be negative. He's friends with Ryan and defends how Ryan beat his mom with a baseball bat.

Well sorry, I can't get over it when Ryan is emailing my friends accusing them of being part of my conspiracy to destroy him!

Now I know my status will be shared with Ryan and he'll use it as part of his theory of how I'm not over him and out to sully his name and generally destroy him!

I must remember that every time I mention his name I put myself in greater danger from his delusional, violent self.

FML.

I hate work. Stupid little kids kept spashing me in the freeking face. If I wanted my damn face wet i would put it in the water and I wouldn't be wearing my glasses. If I wanted to get hit repeatedly by retards not paying attention I think I could handle that on my own time as well.

The when I get home my mom is a stupid f**king b!tch all over again. She went to work and has been on her mother f**king computer all damn day. That is what she does everyday. I went to my college classes and work today. I come home expecting a hot dinner waiting for me. I walk in. Ask where is dinner. Her response? "Oh I didn't know you wanted me to make you something. I figured you ate before work." No you g*d damn cow. I had a snack before work and I just spent 4 hours exersizing. I think I'm going to be hungry. Get off of you lazy a$$ and actually do something in this f**king house.

I swear to god. She never cleans. She leaves mail piled everywhere. She never cooks. She never does dishes. She never does the laundry. Grow the f**k up and act like your my f**king mother. She even owes me money. Wtf? I'm a college student with a sh!tty job. I have no money to spare. And she owes me $289!!!!! I'm so tired of all of this. She still hasn't gotten off of her a$$ to make me food and she knows damn well I don't have the money to buy anything.

That is sh!ttyness.
My bf mom doesn't have a job, doesn't really clean and spends all day on the computer. Drives the bf nuts. And then she complains about being bored all the time. Go for a walk!

Still have a cold. I want it to go away and not wreck my weekend of laziness.

So I'm about to turn in early last night, about 9:30, when I remember that my phone's been on silent all day, so I have a look at it. There's a text from my friend saying her and her brother/his girlfriend are going to go out bowling and inquiring if I wanted to go. I figured what the hell, and headed out. About 200 yards from where I'm supposed to meet them, I get pulled over for going a little fast.

Come to find out my g*ddamn license is expired. ><

On the up side of this, the cop asked me to pull off into a Dunkin' Donuts parking lot nearby so I did. He talked to me a little bit and said that he wasn't going to arrest me for it or have me car towed, and he was gonna let the speeding go.

But, he couldn't let me drive out of there. (Though he did say that if I chose to come back later and get my car, he wouldn't know.)

So I had to call my friend and have them come pick me up. We finally get to the bowling alley and find that it's jammed packed full of kids because it's February vacation. So, after all that we didn't even get any bowling in, just a couple games of pool.

Currently my car is still sitting there, I'm hoping not towed by the employees, and she was supposed to come pick me up for I can get it two hours ago. ><

^^ ohhh sh!t, miserable evening. Glad the cop wasn't a jerk. I hope your car's OK.

My rant: I get really depressed when I have to offer substandard materials or frame packages because we haven't got the cash to get more supplies. It's especially bad when I have to compromise a great framing idea, and the result looks cheap. It can bring down my morning or afternoon. And if the client isn't wild about it, s/he will just go somewhere else, so it can bring down business as well.

Got my car, all is well. That's what I get for trying to be a good friend and going out to do something with her because I know she never really gets out because of her kid. I shoulda just been a selfish a$$ and stayed home and went to bed. ><

In strange coincidence, at about 3:30 AM my other friend (the one I'll be moving in with soon) got pulled over near Boston on his way home from up in the northern part of the state, and his license was expired too. He wasn't so lucky as me and he got his car towed. Meanwhile he's stuck probably 45 minutes from home, and at least half an hour from where he just left from. It almost got real bad when the friend who's place he'd been at had not enough gas to even get there let alone back and no money and no one else able to get him. (I obviously couldn't.) Thankfully the other guy's sister let him use her debit card to get gas to go get him.

He has to go into Boston today to get his car though, and that's gonna suck hard.

At this moment I just want to take life by the throat and kill it. Why does shite happen to good people all the f**king time?

I hate having a cold.
I feel a bit feverish. My nose is stuffy. My body aches. My throat hurts.
It sucks.

Matt just left. I know I shouldn't complain since he has been here all day but every time he goes it seems way too soon.

But my real complaint is I'm tired of my house being messy. I know I should clean everything so I feel better but I feel lazy. Why can't other people clean my house... Like my mother.

^^I know the feeling. My apartment is always cluttered. The hubby loves to complain about how messy this place is, but hardly lifts a finger.

Still feel like poop. Neck is sore again. Out of breath for no reason.

^ I'm sorry your still feelin' so bad. I hope you get to feeling better soon Moon!

For the past few weeks I've been thinking about quitting school. Don't get me wrong, I do like school, but lately I've been feeling weighed down by it. I don't have time to work on on my hobbies, like sewing and beading. Plus, I haven't been able to keep up with the maintenance of my apartment. When I go out, it's usually because I'm putting off school work (I've been turning in A LOT of late assignments). And I always seem to be worrying about school stuff. Plus, tuition is ridiculously expensive. It comes out to just over $5000 a quarter, and there are 4 quarters a year. I have about 4 years of this to deal with. The husband has been super supportive and pays my tuition, but I feel bad that he's putting so much money into this. Also, later on in my program, I'll have to do internships and residencies, which will mean I'll have to take time off work, or quit work all together. Yeah, getting a PhD would be nice, but right now the cons really do outweigh the pros. This current quarter ends next week, finally. I'm debating whether to try one more semester to see if I change my mind, take the next quarter off, or just quit right now.

^^ School is never easy. Trust me I know. Personally I didn't quit because I knew if I did then I wouldn't have the will to start back up again. The choice is up to you, but from what it sounds like, you might want to take a semester off in order to regroup things in your head and get some things settled. It never hurts to take breaks. Sometimes we need them to get the things in our lives put back in order so we can have more ease when it comes to going back to what we put off.


Update from earlier: I started cleaning. I didn't get a lot done but 4 trash bags full without finishing the two rooms I was working on can tell you guys something. I'm thinking I'm just going to do little by little until trash day. That way I won't have tons of trash bags laying around and at the same time I won't be killing myself trying to clean the whole house.

ahhhhh This guy I went to high school with just had a kid. It wouldn't be so bad except he is 21 and she is 17. He tries to talk to me like we are friends but ever since he was in his depressed phase he annoys the crap out of me. The moved out of her parents house and his grandparents house to "stick it to everyone." They can barely take care of themselves with their crappy on and off again jobs and now they have a baby. wtf.

Drunken roommates are only fun when you're drunk with them. Thus far tonight, I've had to deal with one of them drunkenly crying on my shoulder, another ripping off her boyfriends pants in the middle of the kitchen, and another barging into my room when I was changing. Better yet, one of my good friends called. She's drunk too, and getting booted out of her friend's dorm for the night and heading over here to crash. All I wanted was a nice quiet night to do work!

The upstairs neighbors aren't much help either. From what It sounds as if they're bowling up there...